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Kyoto

Having done Tokyo with my brother, dad and Andrea I caught a passing bullet train and a couple of hours and 500 odd km later I am in Kyoto.

The shinkansen I took is the fastest one in Japan, which makes it the second fastest train in the world after France’s TGV. So far I haven’t done much, I wandered about a bit feeling a bit lonely after all the hustle and bustle of Itayanagi and the fun of having family to show around in Tokyo landing up on my own is a bit of a shock to the system! After a bit of wandering and a McDonalds for dinner (I know, I know) I headed back to the Hotel and asked about internet access. The last hotel had a little stand where you could put 100 yen coins in and get a very limited access to a web browser, the hotel I’m in now has web access for people with laptops in the room, but no computers, so I was directed to a place up the street where you pay per 15 mins and get free drinks and stuff while you are on. I was pleasantly suprised to find it all kitted out with real access through real desktop PCs.

So here I am! Although I will be going soon… Expect some more updates as I can now use the internet much more freely… Perhaps even photos…

My life, My Future…

What should I do. I am currently headed for Bible college in Autumn. But why?

Is God calling me to Japan? Is God calling me to be a missionary? Is God calling me to do something else? Is God calling me?

I had an interesting an emotional talk with my dad tonight. Well he did most of the talking, but it was all about my future. And I am left not knowing what I am doing. I was relatively (relative to what though?) confident before, but now I don’t have a clue. I don’t know if it is all just me liking Japan or if God is calling me here. On top of that I don’t think I have truely felt Him calling me to be a missionary like it seems He does in the testimonies of other missionaries. It’s worrying me that my feeling called isn’t just from me not seeing another realistic way to come back to Japan.

I want what I am doing to be of value to God. I want to be working for Him the way He wants me to work for Him. So why isn’t it blindingly obvious? Why isn’t it easy to see and follow?

Or is it easy and I am just reluctant to follow?

If you pray, please pray for me. My life feels very inward looking right now, but I simply can’t seem to focus outwardly until I have this sorted out…